Ugh I'm sick of boy problems

I really want to ask God why he made guys so damn hot. I mean seriously, I hate being tortured. I might have found a really great guy but there's no way in hell he'd date me. I'm not the kind of girl he wants. I know I'm great and whatnot but I hate that I'm not what he wants. I know I should move on, there's other fish in the ocean but I just absolutely hate that personality-wise I'm probably what he wants but not looks. I know a guy shouldn't choose a girl over looks, but he's in that category of guys who choose that beautiful girl. Okay, so I don't know him that well but from everything I see, its what I want.

If I can start my master plan now I can get him within a year. Hopefully. If I actually start it after Thanksgiving that is. Because I can't stand not having him.

Wow, I havent blog yet in November?!

Hahaha, nope I haven't. So this is my first post nine days into the month. I think I'm serverly addicted to tumblr. It's really gonna turn into a big problem somewhere down the road. I think I'm addicted to raising my tumblarity up constantly.

I think I should either go to the Downtown Fiction concert or the Monarchs game on Wednesday. I should get out an about and let tumblr be.

Other than my addiction to tumblr, I haven't really been up to much. Pretty much just tumblr & street teamed all weekend. Pretty boring I know. But it was a lazy weekend for me. I probably wont get another one for a while.

I go home most weekends now. Been helping the family organize things at my Grams since we're going to be selling it hopefully within the next year.

I need another concert! I'm dying since my last one on October 23rd when I saw the ever-so-handsome Jesse Ruben. So good to see him again! If I don't see the TDF on Wed. I won't see one until the 27th & 28th when I see Boys Like Girls, the Maine, A Rocket to the Moon, Cobra Starship & Versa Emerge on the 27th. And Push Play, Phil Bensen & Emily Osment on the 28th. Can NOT wait for that weekend!

Just one month & eight days left until I leave this horrid school!

I didn't think I'd get this upset

I really didn't think I would get this upset over this. Any vacation I was planning is not happening. Of course, I blame part of it on Bud Holloway because he's got me listening to Eric Church's Carolina (sad country song). I just wanted a vacation so bad! I just wanted to go somewhere were I can disconnected myself from the world and just have fun with never-yet-to-face-have-met friends. I just wanted a vacation with no worries, drama or bullshit. I haven't had one since summer 2008 and with all the stress that has been going on here at Hesser, I just wanted to get away from it all. I guess that was too much to ask. Well my mother got her wish, she doesn't have to worry about me missing classes or spending that kind of money on me. I hope she knows that I am now gonna to demand a camera for Christmas. I've been wanting a "good" one for years but you know the elders, don't explore possibilities, just go with what's cheap and is crap. I'm picking out the one I want! I already have one in mind. And it's a hell of a lot cheaper than the one I was asking for around my birthday. 700 dollars cheaper! Now knowing that my Dallas or Orlando vacation isn't happening, that just drives me to making my trip to Cali this coming summer WILL HAPPEN! Even if I have to walk there! I will get there!

I'm not worth it

I'm not worth your friendship. For some reason I never do anything right anymore. I am constantly being attacked. And they get their friends to attack me too. Seriously, this isn't high school. I can't take it anymore. I can't make anyone happy anymore, I guess I just piss them off. I'm just loosing friendships left and right.

True Life: I will have seriously problems with alarms in the future

Sorry Madi, but I need to steal your "True Life" for this post. I seriously think I'm going to have like post-traumatic stress alarm disorder. PTSAD. I figured that out last Monday night, after our 4th alarm in 2 weeks last Monday morning. Monday night as I was trying to fall asleep, I was starting to freak out that there was going to be another alarm early Tuesday morning. I remember during the summer, my mom, sister and I were at Friendly's and their alarm in the kitchen was going off. I could hear it and I started freaking out. It's like the exact alarm with have here. I think I'm going to have some seriously problem in the future when I hear an alarm or something close to it. I'm already freaking out now. Well not at the moment but last week and such. You get my point.

It's Fall People

I am getting so sick of hearing people complain it's cold. It's like IT'S CALLED FALL IT'S GONNA GET COLD! What in the world are you going to do when WINTER comes?? Wait, you mean to tell me you've grown up in New England since you were born and YOU'RE STILL NOT USED TO THE COLD??? If you hate the cold, move SOUTH! This is New England, WE GET SNOW! I'm gonna start telling people that you can start complaining it's cold when you've stood outside the Verizon Wireless Arena for about an hour in about 15º to 20º with snow on the ground waiting to get a Mr. Potato Head. That was in I think December. I'm doing the same thing this coming February for the Kevin Westgarth Bobblefists. I WANT MY BOBBLEFISTS! So I have to stand outside in the freezing cold. Do that and then you can complain about the cold!

This is why I love my team

Things like this is the reason I love my team so much! This is such a wonderful idea! I'm bringing as many boxes as I can afford! :D

"MANCHESTER, NH – The Monarchs Care Foundation, the charitable arm of the Manchester Monarchs, announced in a press conference on Tuesday that they are partnering with the New Hampshire Food Bank, Shaw’s and AutoFair to host New Hampshire’s largest known collection of macaroni and cheese, the Max & Cheese Food Drive, at the Verizon Wireless Arena during the Monarchs Home Opener on Saturday, October 17 against the Portland Pirates at 7:00 p.m.

The Monarchs Care Foundation is asking fans to bring boxes of macaroni and cheese to the team’s Home Opener. During the game, fans will be able to use the boxes as noise makers to cheer the Monarchs on to victory. At the end of the game, the team will collect the boxes of macaroni and cheese and donate them to the New Hampshire Food Bank. The Monarchs Care Foundation will also have boxes of macaroni and cheese available during the game for donations to the New Hampshire Food Bank.

“The Monarchs Care Foundation and the Manchester Monarchs are proud to partner with these local businesses to give back to the community and help feed the hungry,” explained Monarchs President Jeff Eisenberg. “We are committed to the city of Manchester and the state of New Hampshire and by hosting the Max & Cheese Food Drive, we’ll be able to assist in feeding thousands of families across the state.”

Shaw’s will be promoting the Max & Cheese Food Drive, as well as marketing their brand of macaroni and cheese at a discounted price of two boxes for $1.00, throughout 11 stores in New Hampshire. The Monarchs mascot, Max, will be visiting these locations to spread the word about the food drive and encourage fans to join him at the Monarchs Home Opener.

“Shaw’s is excited to be involved in this event with our friends at the New Hampshire Food Bank, and the Manchester Monarchs,” said Shaw’s Manager of Community Relations and Associate Communications Rick Tremblay. “What a fun and creative way to enjoy opening night and make a difference with a donation to the NH Food Bank. For Shaw’s, hunger relief is core to our charitable mission, and we are proud of our support, and of the long-standing relationship Shaw’s has had with the New Hampshire Food Bank.”

In addition, AutoFair is challenging Monarchs fans to bring macaroni and cheese to the game by committing to match all fans donations collected at the game, up to $5,000, for the New Hampshire Food Bank.

“AutoFair is thrilled to be a part of this wonderful initiative,” said President and CEO of AutoFair, Andy Crews. “We are committed to helping the hungry and making some noise at the Monarchs Home Opener. We challenge all fans to open their hearts and their wallets to help those less fortunate.”

A box of macaroni and cheese is a meal in itself. It has the basic building blocks of a wholesome meal and it’s so easy to make, even kids can do it. Macaroni and cheese is a comfort food and a staple item at the New Hampshire Food Bank as it has a two-year shelf life.

“Macaroni and cheese is one of the most requested items at the food bank,” said the New Hampshire Food Bank’s Executive Director Melanie Gosselin. “We distribute 20,000 pounds of food a day to individuals and agencies throughout the state. The demand for food grows on a daily basis and this food drive will assist us in meeting those demands.”

Bring a box of macaroni and cheese to the Max & Cheese Food Drive and make some noise at the Monarchs Home Opener on Saturday, October 17 at 7:00 p.m. versus Portland at the Verizon Wireless Arena. The first 5,000 fans to the Monarchs Home Opener will receive a magnetic schedule for the 2009-10 season. Catch all of the play-by-play action of Monarchs hockey with Ken Cail on the Monarchs Radio Network WGAM 900/1250 AM and at www.manchestermonarchs.com."